1 00:00:04,997 --> 00:00:06,380 . 2 00:00:06,381 --> 00:00:07,431 - Call Dr. Charles. 3 00:00:07,841 --> 00:00:09,426 This is his daughter. 4 00:00:09,427 --> 00:00:11,969 - When I got in my car, it just seemed like the only option. 5 00:00:11,970 --> 00:00:14,180 - I will always be here for you. 6 00:00:14,222 --> 00:00:15,974 - My mother died of prion disease 7 00:00:16,016 --> 00:00:17,892 when she was 45 years old. 8 00:00:17,976 --> 00:00:19,060 - Do you have it? 9 00:00:19,227 --> 00:00:21,938 [dramatic music] 10 00:00:21,939 --> 00:00:23,313 - I'm really gonna miss the ED. 11 00:00:23,314 --> 00:00:25,124 We do an awful lot of good down here, 12 00:00:25,125 --> 00:00:26,233 and the people aren't half bad. 13 00:00:26,234 --> 00:00:31,239 * * 14 00:00:31,364 --> 00:00:32,657 - I got stuck in a well. 15 00:00:32,699 --> 00:00:34,451 You might not remember me. 16 00:00:34,534 --> 00:00:35,584 - Sadie. 17 00:00:35,618 --> 00:00:36,828 - [laughs] 18 00:00:40,915 --> 00:00:42,876 - We need to talk. 19 00:00:44,336 --> 00:00:46,212 Sorry for bothering you so late. 20 00:00:46,213 --> 00:00:47,838 - It's not bothering me. It's not late. 21 00:00:47,839 --> 00:00:48,965 What's on your mind? 22 00:00:49,007 --> 00:00:50,425 - I'm pregnant. 23 00:00:50,550 --> 00:00:53,303 - Uh, you're pregnant? 24 00:00:53,386 --> 00:00:55,472 - Yeah, I am. 25 00:00:55,555 --> 00:00:57,432 And... 26 00:00:59,351 --> 00:01:01,102 It's yours. 27 00:01:05,190 --> 00:01:06,358 [glasses clink] 28 00:01:07,859 --> 00:01:10,278 - Yeah, I guess that makes sense. 29 00:01:10,320 --> 00:01:13,531 Uh... 30 00:01:13,656 --> 00:01:16,117 well, I warned you, those Crunch Berries 31 00:01:16,242 --> 00:01:17,619 could be an indulgence. 32 00:01:17,702 --> 00:01:19,788 - They most certainly were. 33 00:01:19,954 --> 00:01:21,873 - Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. 34 00:01:21,998 --> 00:01:25,794 You-you-you're going to have the baby? 35 00:01:25,877 --> 00:01:27,045 - Yeah, definitely. 36 00:01:27,128 --> 00:01:28,546 - Okay. 37 00:01:28,630 --> 00:01:30,965 - But I need you to know, Dean, that I don't- 38 00:01:30,966 --> 00:01:32,883 I mean, I don't expect anything from you. 39 00:01:32,884 --> 00:01:34,469 - Well, what does that mean? 40 00:01:34,552 --> 00:01:37,263 - You know, if you're past this, 41 00:01:37,347 --> 00:01:39,516 I-I-I can do this alone. 42 00:01:39,517 --> 00:01:40,849 There would be no hard feelings. 43 00:01:40,850 --> 00:01:42,352 Anything- 44 00:01:42,435 --> 00:01:46,147 - I'm not past wanting to be the father of my child. 45 00:01:46,272 --> 00:01:48,149 I just need to absolutely know 46 00:01:48,233 --> 00:01:50,860 that this is what you want to do. 47 00:01:50,902 --> 00:01:52,487 - Yeah, I do. 48 00:01:54,948 --> 00:01:57,075 I want to be a mother. 49 00:01:57,158 --> 00:01:58,368 - Okay. 50 00:01:58,410 --> 00:01:59,619 I didn't know that. 51 00:01:59,744 --> 00:02:01,788 - Neither did I, 52 00:02:01,830 --> 00:02:05,917 until I saw that positive test. 53 00:02:06,042 --> 00:02:11,798 And then just all these feelings just hit me so hard. 54 00:02:11,840 --> 00:02:15,927 It was kind of shocking, 'cause... 55 00:02:15,969 --> 00:02:19,681 you know, I never felt like this was in the cards for me. 56 00:02:19,723 --> 00:02:21,182 - Why not? 57 00:02:21,307 --> 00:02:24,019 - I'm an addict, Dean. 58 00:02:24,144 --> 00:02:26,146 I didn't deserve a child, 59 00:02:26,147 --> 00:02:27,563 and it certainly didn't deserve me. 60 00:02:27,564 --> 00:02:28,773 - Stop it. 61 00:02:28,857 --> 00:02:30,237 That is a lie, and you know it. 62 00:02:30,316 --> 00:02:32,777 - I do now, but you were a big part of that. 63 00:02:32,861 --> 00:02:35,697 [soft dramatic music] 64 00:02:35,780 --> 00:02:37,615 - I'm glad. 65 00:02:37,699 --> 00:02:41,036 * * 66 00:02:41,119 --> 00:02:43,496 Look, um... 67 00:02:48,084 --> 00:02:51,588 Whatever you need, I'm in. 68 00:02:51,671 --> 00:02:53,256 Okay? 69 00:02:53,340 --> 00:02:54,591 - Okay. 70 00:02:54,674 --> 00:03:00,555 * * 71 00:03:00,722 --> 00:03:05,101 Just two friends, 72 00:03:05,185 --> 00:03:08,313 having a baby. 73 00:03:08,396 --> 00:03:09,939 - Yeah. [chuckles] 74 00:03:10,023 --> 00:03:11,191 Yeah. 75 00:03:13,028 --> 00:03:18,072 - Uber Eats finally dropped off your breakfast sushi. 76 00:03:18,073 --> 00:03:19,699 You should ding that 5.0 rating. 77 00:03:19,783 --> 00:03:21,785 - Yeah. - Hey, all yours. 78 00:03:21,826 --> 00:03:23,411 Already ate. 79 00:03:23,495 --> 00:03:25,663 You are rocking that OB-GYN green. 80 00:03:25,747 --> 00:03:27,040 - Thank you, John. 81 00:03:35,674 --> 00:03:37,676 - You know, maybe if you told people 82 00:03:37,677 --> 00:03:40,594 why you can't eat raw fish, you wouldn't have to waste any. 83 00:03:40,595 --> 00:03:42,389 - Soon. 84 00:03:42,390 --> 00:03:43,764 - You're three months along. 85 00:03:43,765 --> 00:03:45,515 What exactly are you waiting for? 86 00:03:45,558 --> 00:03:47,102 - Can we not right now? 87 00:03:47,143 --> 00:03:49,354 - I'm just saying, the baby daddy might 88 00:03:49,396 --> 00:03:51,314 be getting a little impatient. 89 00:03:51,315 --> 00:03:52,523 [alarm beeping] - Incoming. 90 00:03:52,524 --> 00:03:53,692 Triple trauma. 91 00:03:53,733 --> 00:03:54,993 House fire with bad burns. 92 00:03:55,068 --> 00:03:56,152 Two minutes out. 93 00:03:56,194 --> 00:03:58,988 [dramatic music] 94 00:03:59,030 --> 00:04:00,490 - Trauma 1's ready. 95 00:04:00,491 --> 00:04:02,282 Ricky Aldrich, 11-year-old male, 96 00:04:02,283 --> 00:04:03,827 burns to his right arm and leg. 97 00:04:03,828 --> 00:04:05,577 Looks deep in some places. - Where's my dad? 98 00:04:05,578 --> 00:04:06,745 - Right behind us, Ricky. 99 00:04:06,746 --> 00:04:07,826 - Breath sounds clear. 100 00:04:07,872 --> 00:04:09,249 Sats 96 on 2 liters. 101 00:04:09,290 --> 00:04:11,251 Heart rate 125. - What happened? 102 00:04:11,252 --> 00:04:12,543 - Father made a quick trip to the grocery store. 103 00:04:12,544 --> 00:04:14,004 Ricky was sleeping. 104 00:04:14,005 --> 00:04:16,255 He came home to find the second floor engulfed in flames. 105 00:04:16,256 --> 00:04:17,799 - My dad carried me out. 106 00:04:17,882 --> 00:04:19,342 He saved me. 107 00:04:19,343 --> 00:04:20,884 - It's okay, buddy. We got you, all right? 108 00:04:20,885 --> 00:04:22,678 - 43-year-old male with burns to his chest, 109 00:04:22,679 --> 00:04:24,431 abdomen, and all four limbs. 110 00:04:24,556 --> 00:04:27,434 Put him on a face mask, gave him 8 of morphine en route. 111 00:04:27,517 --> 00:04:29,102 He's been pretty agitated. 112 00:04:29,103 --> 00:04:31,645 - 100 of fentanyl and pull some Versed in case it's not enough. 113 00:04:31,646 --> 00:04:32,814 - Copy. - All right. 114 00:04:32,815 --> 00:04:34,064 I'm going to need you to be still, sir. 115 00:04:34,065 --> 00:04:35,442 Be still, please. 116 00:04:35,443 --> 00:04:36,817 - Please, did you find her? 117 00:04:36,818 --> 00:04:39,362 - On my count, one, two, three. 118 00:04:39,487 --> 00:04:40,989 Find who? 119 00:04:41,072 --> 00:04:42,824 - His wife. He got his son out. 120 00:04:42,825 --> 00:04:44,450 By the time he went back in for her, 121 00:04:44,451 --> 00:04:46,201 the flames had consumed the primary bedroom. 122 00:04:46,202 --> 00:04:47,829 - [weakly] I can't breathe. 123 00:04:47,954 --> 00:04:49,330 Can't breathe. - Intubate. 124 00:04:49,372 --> 00:04:51,666 - Oxygen's down to 87, heart rate 145. 125 00:04:51,750 --> 00:04:53,293 - Etomidate and sux are in. 126 00:04:53,376 --> 00:04:55,295 - Yeah. - [breathing raspily] 127 00:04:55,420 --> 00:04:57,589 - Here we go. 128 00:04:57,672 --> 00:04:59,174 All right, I'm in. 129 00:04:59,257 --> 00:05:01,885 We'll have to do a chest escharotomy. 130 00:05:01,886 --> 00:05:03,886 - I need some help if you can spare it, Dean. 131 00:05:03,887 --> 00:05:05,889 His wife just came in. - Yeah. 132 00:05:05,930 --> 00:05:07,349 Go, go, go, go. 133 00:05:08,850 --> 00:05:10,935 - I'm guessing about 80%. 134 00:05:11,061 --> 00:05:13,480 - Oh, it's closer to 90%, full thickness. 135 00:05:13,563 --> 00:05:15,482 Morphine drip. - Copy. 136 00:05:18,777 --> 00:05:22,614 Dr. Lenox, she's responsive. 137 00:05:22,697 --> 00:05:24,783 - Becky, I'm Dr. Lenox. 138 00:05:26,993 --> 00:05:28,536 Your burns are severe. 139 00:05:28,578 --> 00:05:29,829 I'm sorry. 140 00:05:29,871 --> 00:05:32,749 This is a non-survivable injury. 141 00:05:32,874 --> 00:05:34,834 Is there anyone you want us to call? 142 00:05:37,337 --> 00:05:41,132 We will do everything we can to make you comfortable, okay? 143 00:05:41,216 --> 00:05:42,967 You're not alone. 144 00:05:43,051 --> 00:05:44,386 I'm here. 145 00:05:44,552 --> 00:05:46,888 [somber music] 146 00:05:46,971 --> 00:05:48,390 - Propofol? 147 00:05:48,473 --> 00:05:50,517 - I'll grab it from the med cart. 148 00:05:54,396 --> 00:05:57,315 [monitor beeping] 149 00:06:00,527 --> 00:06:02,070 - Peak pressures are improved. 150 00:06:02,237 --> 00:06:04,364 [monitor beeping] 151 00:06:04,489 --> 00:06:06,449 [sustained tone] 152 00:06:06,574 --> 00:06:11,996 * * 153 00:06:12,038 --> 00:06:14,416 - Time of death, 7:43. 154 00:06:19,838 --> 00:06:23,800 - [sobbing] 155 00:06:23,842 --> 00:06:26,636 [dramatic music] 156 00:06:26,761 --> 00:06:28,221 * * 157 00:06:32,511 --> 00:06:33,851 . 158 00:06:33,852 --> 00:06:35,894 - Please explain how a broken window replacement 159 00:06:35,895 --> 00:06:37,480 turned into this mess. 160 00:06:37,481 --> 00:06:39,064 - Removing the window revealed water damage 161 00:06:39,065 --> 00:06:40,567 to the wall and floor, 162 00:06:40,608 --> 00:06:43,153 which revealed a major water pipe leak. 163 00:06:43,154 --> 00:06:45,195 - Talk about the gift that keeps on giving. 164 00:06:45,196 --> 00:06:47,782 - Send a new estimate to my desk before end of day. 165 00:06:47,907 --> 00:06:50,076 - You got it. 166 00:06:50,077 --> 00:06:52,911 - Speaking of which, you talk to Maggie since she left? 167 00:06:52,912 --> 00:06:54,372 - Not a peep. 168 00:06:54,414 --> 00:06:57,917 Oh, how's Anna doing at Northwestern? 169 00:06:58,043 --> 00:06:59,794 - She's loving it. I'm loving it. 170 00:06:59,878 --> 00:07:01,504 - Yeah? - Yeah. 171 00:07:01,505 --> 00:07:03,255 I mean, she comes over on weekends, you know, 172 00:07:03,256 --> 00:07:05,216 we hang out, lets me do her laundry. 173 00:07:05,258 --> 00:07:06,718 - Well, you sound happy. 174 00:07:06,843 --> 00:07:08,178 - I do? - Yeah. 175 00:07:08,303 --> 00:07:09,387 - Careful. 176 00:07:09,512 --> 00:07:10,930 Happiness is a trap. 177 00:07:11,014 --> 00:07:13,433 - [laughs] 178 00:07:18,146 --> 00:07:20,398 - You never made a follow-up appointment. 179 00:07:20,440 --> 00:07:22,692 [siren wailing distantly] 180 00:07:22,776 --> 00:07:24,861 - Didn't see the point. 181 00:07:24,862 --> 00:07:27,237 - Look, I understand that you don't want the world 182 00:07:27,238 --> 00:07:28,947 to know about your prion diagnosis, 183 00:07:28,948 --> 00:07:30,407 but that doesn't mean you can blow off 184 00:07:30,408 --> 00:07:32,117 your follow-up appointments. - Why? 185 00:07:32,118 --> 00:07:33,578 Did they find a cure? 186 00:07:33,579 --> 00:07:35,245 - It's a mistake not to deal with this. 187 00:07:35,246 --> 00:07:37,165 - No, my mistake was getting tested 188 00:07:37,166 --> 00:07:38,791 at Gaffney, because I didn't know 189 00:07:38,792 --> 00:07:40,232 you would be sent the results. 190 00:07:40,335 --> 00:07:44,547 So can we just pretend that I didn't and you weren't? 191 00:07:44,631 --> 00:07:47,217 What's this? - An unaffiliated psychiatrist. 192 00:07:47,342 --> 00:07:48,968 She's a relative of mine, 193 00:07:49,094 --> 00:07:51,721 specializes in hard cases like you. 194 00:07:51,763 --> 00:07:53,223 - Hard pass. 195 00:07:53,224 --> 00:07:55,391 - You're clearly in the denial stage of grief. 196 00:07:55,392 --> 00:07:56,892 - Well, actually, I've moved on to anger, 197 00:07:56,893 --> 00:07:57,943 and I'm loving it. 198 00:07:58,019 --> 00:07:59,646 - Look, I get it, okay? 199 00:07:59,647 --> 00:08:01,855 This was devastating news that you don't deserve, 200 00:08:01,856 --> 00:08:04,386 but you could be symptom free for another 20 years. 201 00:08:04,387 --> 00:08:06,068 - Or symptoms could start tomorrow, 202 00:08:06,069 --> 00:08:07,939 and I'm dead in a year, like my mother. 203 00:08:10,782 --> 00:08:12,033 - You need an outlet. 204 00:08:12,117 --> 00:08:14,035 - Work is my outlet. 205 00:08:14,160 --> 00:08:16,121 - The second floor caved in on over... 206 00:08:16,246 --> 00:08:18,790 - It's all over the news and social media. 207 00:08:18,791 --> 00:08:21,166 - How many people were in the building when it collapsed? 208 00:08:21,167 --> 00:08:22,627 - 80. 209 00:08:22,628 --> 00:08:24,628 It was an all-night rave in the West Loop. 210 00:08:24,629 --> 00:08:26,505 Building was condemned and set to be demolished next week. 211 00:08:26,506 --> 00:08:29,300 - So are we on MCI protocol? - Yes. 212 00:08:29,301 --> 00:08:31,468 CFD is dispersing patients evenly between trauma centers, 213 00:08:31,469 --> 00:08:34,806 but we should get between 15 to 20. 214 00:08:34,931 --> 00:08:36,725 - You got this. [intercom beeps] 215 00:08:36,850 --> 00:08:38,560 - Talk to me. - Sisters, both 20s. 216 00:08:38,643 --> 00:08:40,103 Vital signs stable. 217 00:08:40,104 --> 00:08:42,271 Sierra's forearm stabbed Shay in the abdomen. 218 00:08:42,272 --> 00:08:43,689 - Chicago Fire cut away the debris at the scene 219 00:08:43,690 --> 00:08:45,232 to keep them as still as possible. 220 00:08:45,233 --> 00:08:47,110 - Doris, please page Abrams. - Got it. 221 00:08:47,152 --> 00:08:49,112 Both received ketamine en route. 222 00:08:49,113 --> 00:08:51,572 - I said no to drugs at the rave, but yes in the ambulance. 223 00:08:51,573 --> 00:08:53,324 - And now we are feeling no pain. 224 00:08:53,325 --> 00:08:54,700 - And how did this happen? 225 00:08:54,701 --> 00:08:56,691 - I took my little sis, Shay, to the rave. 226 00:08:56,692 --> 00:08:58,620 Girlfriend needed to let off some steam. 227 00:08:58,621 --> 00:09:00,372 - No, no. How did your injuries happen? 228 00:09:00,373 --> 00:09:01,583 - Oh. 229 00:09:01,584 --> 00:09:03,250 - We were dancing on the second floor 230 00:09:03,251 --> 00:09:05,420 when it collapsed underneath our feet. 231 00:09:05,421 --> 00:09:07,880 - Something smashed my arm, then I was on my back, 232 00:09:07,881 --> 00:09:10,091 and next thing I know, Shay's on top of me. 233 00:09:10,216 --> 00:09:12,177 - Sierra's arm stabs me in the gut. 234 00:09:12,302 --> 00:09:14,052 I mean, how does that even happen? 235 00:09:14,137 --> 00:09:16,067 - We always said we wanted to be closer. 236 00:09:16,097 --> 00:09:18,558 - Where do you want me? 237 00:09:18,559 --> 00:09:21,143 - Think we can salvage this arm with the neurovascular repair? 238 00:09:21,144 --> 00:09:22,270 - Let's take a look. 239 00:09:22,354 --> 00:09:23,772 - Sierra's oxygen is at 98%. 240 00:09:23,855 --> 00:09:26,191 Shay's is 94%. 241 00:09:26,232 --> 00:09:28,693 - Breath sounds normal. No pneumo. 242 00:09:28,777 --> 00:09:31,071 - Heart rate 95 and 115, respectively. 243 00:09:31,196 --> 00:09:32,530 - I'll FAST for free fluid. 244 00:09:32,531 --> 00:09:34,239 - Let me assess the blood supply in the arm. 245 00:09:34,240 --> 00:09:36,242 [suspenseful music] 246 00:09:36,326 --> 00:09:38,453 - Sierra's FAST is normal. 247 00:09:42,415 --> 00:09:44,167 Shay's got free fluid. 248 00:09:44,168 --> 00:09:46,126 - Sierra's brachial artery has flow, 249 00:09:46,127 --> 00:09:48,588 but I can't find anything distal. 250 00:09:48,713 --> 00:09:51,424 - Let's get a C-arm for X-ray. 251 00:09:51,425 --> 00:09:53,926 - The tip of Sierra's bone looks intra-abdominal, 252 00:09:53,927 --> 00:09:56,720 but more concerningly, it's right where Shay's spleen is. 253 00:09:56,721 --> 00:09:58,389 - So the bone might have pierced it. 254 00:09:58,390 --> 00:10:00,058 We'll need a CT to confirm. 255 00:10:00,059 --> 00:10:01,934 - Good luck squeezing them both into one. 256 00:10:01,935 --> 00:10:03,811 - One false move, and Shay bleeds out faster 257 00:10:03,812 --> 00:10:05,522 than we can open her up to stop it. 258 00:10:05,605 --> 00:10:09,150 If we're right, Shay's a ticking time bomb. 259 00:10:11,152 --> 00:10:12,654 - All right. All right. 260 00:10:12,655 --> 00:10:14,113 Okay, I need everyone to please take a step back. 261 00:10:14,114 --> 00:10:15,614 - I'm looking for my son, Jerome. 262 00:10:15,615 --> 00:10:17,200 He's not answering his phone. 263 00:10:17,201 --> 00:10:18,617 - I understand that you are concerned for your loved one, 264 00:10:18,618 --> 00:10:19,618 but you got to let us work, okay? 265 00:10:19,619 --> 00:10:20,829 - Go. 266 00:10:20,830 --> 00:10:21,912 I just called security for backup. 267 00:10:21,913 --> 00:10:22,997 - Thank you. 268 00:10:22,998 --> 00:10:24,289 - Lay down, honey, okay? 269 00:10:24,290 --> 00:10:25,667 X-ray is coming. 270 00:10:25,792 --> 00:10:26,918 Whoa. 271 00:10:26,919 --> 00:10:28,335 - 24-year-old male with head trauma. 272 00:10:28,336 --> 00:10:29,461 - Dr. Asher. - Yeah, I'm here. 273 00:10:29,462 --> 00:10:30,504 - Trauma rooms are full. 274 00:10:30,505 --> 00:10:32,340 Take Treatment 2, okay? 275 00:10:32,382 --> 00:10:33,550 Trini? - Yeah. 276 00:10:33,675 --> 00:10:34,926 5 is open. 277 00:10:35,051 --> 00:10:36,511 - Dr. Ripley. - Yeah? 278 00:10:36,594 --> 00:10:37,804 What do we got, Evie? 279 00:10:37,929 --> 00:10:39,799 - Hudson Collins, 19-year-old male. 280 00:10:39,800 --> 00:10:41,807 Right leg was crushed by a collapsed beam. 281 00:10:41,808 --> 00:10:43,935 - Take Treatment 5. - Why am I here? 282 00:10:43,936 --> 00:10:45,894 - He's high on ecstasy, but we gave him 100 of fentanyl 283 00:10:45,895 --> 00:10:46,945 en route for pain. 284 00:10:47,022 --> 00:10:48,231 O2 is 98. 285 00:10:48,273 --> 00:10:49,733 Heart rate, 115. 286 00:10:49,858 --> 00:10:50,942 - He looks dry. 287 00:10:51,067 --> 00:10:52,485 - I should be dead. 288 00:10:52,486 --> 00:10:54,111 - We got you, buddy. On my count. 289 00:10:54,112 --> 00:10:56,906 One, two, three. 290 00:10:56,948 --> 00:10:58,199 - I should be dead. 291 00:10:58,200 --> 00:10:59,533 - He was like this all the way here. 292 00:10:59,534 --> 00:11:01,077 - Thanks, Evie. 293 00:11:01,078 --> 00:11:03,537 100 more mics of fentanyl and stop fluids at 1 liter. 294 00:11:03,538 --> 00:11:05,331 - Copy. 295 00:11:05,415 --> 00:11:06,750 - So dark. 296 00:11:06,875 --> 00:11:08,626 Everyone was screaming. 297 00:11:08,668 --> 00:11:10,503 I-I couldn't breathe. 298 00:11:10,587 --> 00:11:12,422 - You're safe now. 299 00:11:12,547 --> 00:11:14,132 - I deserve to be dead. 300 00:11:14,174 --> 00:11:16,426 - Okay. Fentanyl is on board. 301 00:11:16,468 --> 00:11:19,220 - You're about to feel a whole lot better, Hudson. 302 00:11:19,346 --> 00:11:21,348 - Help me die, please. 303 00:11:21,431 --> 00:11:23,183 Please, I'll do it myself. 304 00:11:23,266 --> 00:11:24,466 You just give me the meds. 305 00:11:24,517 --> 00:11:26,603 - You don't mean that. 306 00:11:26,644 --> 00:11:27,896 - No, I do. 307 00:11:28,021 --> 00:11:29,147 I want to die. 308 00:11:29,189 --> 00:11:30,732 Please, just help me die. 309 00:11:30,815 --> 00:11:32,942 I want to die! 310 00:11:33,068 --> 00:11:35,737 Please, please, please, please. 311 00:11:39,860 --> 00:11:41,241 . 312 00:11:41,242 --> 00:11:43,078 [monitor beeping steadily] 313 00:11:44,079 --> 00:11:46,289 So what do you think his chances are? 314 00:11:46,373 --> 00:11:47,874 - Oh. 315 00:11:47,957 --> 00:11:50,001 Third degree burns over 65% of his body 316 00:11:50,043 --> 00:11:51,920 and an inhalation injury. 317 00:11:52,003 --> 00:11:55,965 Sadly, I think his son's going to wake up an orphan. 318 00:11:56,007 --> 00:11:57,592 How's he doing? 319 00:11:57,676 --> 00:11:59,094 - He's stable. 320 00:11:59,095 --> 00:12:00,886 The extremity burns are pretty deep, 321 00:12:00,887 --> 00:12:03,098 but he's resting comfortably. 322 00:12:03,181 --> 00:12:04,599 - Well, that's good. 323 00:12:04,683 --> 00:12:07,268 I'll go book an OR to debride his burns. 324 00:12:07,269 --> 00:12:09,228 With any luck, we'll avoid infection 325 00:12:09,229 --> 00:12:11,105 and save both limbs from contracture. 326 00:12:11,106 --> 00:12:13,108 - Do you have room for one more? 327 00:12:13,191 --> 00:12:14,693 - That depends, Dr. Howard. 328 00:12:14,818 --> 00:12:17,529 The OR temperature's going be turned up to 94 degrees. 329 00:12:17,696 --> 00:12:18,863 Can you tell me why? 330 00:12:18,864 --> 00:12:20,614 - Skin regulates body temperature, 331 00:12:20,615 --> 00:12:22,117 so when burns destroy it, 332 00:12:22,118 --> 00:12:24,284 hypothermia becomes a significant danger, 333 00:12:24,285 --> 00:12:25,578 even at room temperature. 334 00:12:25,704 --> 00:12:27,580 - Top marks. We'll see you there. 335 00:12:27,706 --> 00:12:29,624 And remember, dress to sweat. 336 00:12:31,960 --> 00:12:33,795 - Hi. - Hi. 337 00:12:33,962 --> 00:12:36,548 - So you're a general surgery resident now? 338 00:12:36,631 --> 00:12:37,841 - Mm-hmm. 339 00:12:37,842 --> 00:12:39,258 - I didn't even know you were back. 340 00:12:39,259 --> 00:12:41,052 - No, it's my first week. 341 00:12:41,219 --> 00:12:44,305 After I left cardiothoracic, I took some time for myself. 342 00:12:44,472 --> 00:12:46,282 But then Dr. Lenox called me and said 343 00:12:46,307 --> 00:12:48,184 the slot was mine if I wanted it, so. 344 00:12:48,268 --> 00:12:50,729 - Well, welcome home. 345 00:12:50,812 --> 00:12:51,938 - Thanks. 346 00:12:56,776 --> 00:12:58,319 - I spoke to your mom and dad. 347 00:12:58,361 --> 00:13:00,572 They are catching the first plane out of LA. 348 00:13:00,573 --> 00:13:02,197 - Do you know what's wrong with me? 349 00:13:02,198 --> 00:13:04,617 - The bone probably punctured your spleen, 350 00:13:04,701 --> 00:13:07,328 so we need to remove it before you bleed out. 351 00:13:07,370 --> 00:13:10,457 - Surgery will allow us to amputate Sierra's arm 352 00:13:10,458 --> 00:13:12,082 and to control further bleeding 353 00:13:12,083 --> 00:13:13,834 from your intra-abdominal injuries. 354 00:13:13,835 --> 00:13:15,405 - Amputate? Can't you save it? 355 00:13:15,420 --> 00:13:17,589 - I'm afraid not. 356 00:13:17,630 --> 00:13:19,049 There's no blood flow. 357 00:13:19,132 --> 00:13:21,718 The tissue is completely dead. 358 00:13:21,801 --> 00:13:24,179 - What are my chances? 359 00:13:24,180 --> 00:13:26,972 - Well, obviously, there's risk inherent in any surgery, 360 00:13:26,973 --> 00:13:28,725 but we're very optimistic. 361 00:13:28,808 --> 00:13:31,186 - It's actually 50/50. 362 00:13:31,269 --> 00:13:33,979 And the longer we wait, the greater your risk of death. 363 00:13:35,315 --> 00:13:37,400 - So I may not wake up? 364 00:13:37,442 --> 00:13:39,110 - Oh, my God, Shay. 365 00:13:39,194 --> 00:13:41,237 - That outcome is a possibility. 366 00:13:41,279 --> 00:13:44,199 But as Dr. Abrams said, it is not the one that we want. 367 00:13:44,200 --> 00:13:45,949 And the faster we get you to surgery, 368 00:13:45,950 --> 00:13:47,744 the more your odds increase. 369 00:13:47,827 --> 00:13:51,206 And 50% likelihood of survival are odds that I can work with. 370 00:13:51,331 --> 00:13:53,291 Okay? 371 00:13:53,375 --> 00:13:54,751 - Okay. 372 00:13:54,876 --> 00:13:57,754 [tense music] 373 00:13:57,796 --> 00:14:00,924 - You know, there is such a thing as too much honesty. 374 00:14:01,091 --> 00:14:03,885 - You of all people think I was too harsh in there? 375 00:14:03,886 --> 00:14:06,220 - While it's true I'm a big fan of tough love, 376 00:14:06,221 --> 00:14:07,680 but there's a way to convey the truth 377 00:14:07,681 --> 00:14:09,933 without completely deflating hope. 378 00:14:09,934 --> 00:14:12,559 - And there's a difference between hope and delusion. 379 00:14:12,560 --> 00:14:14,853 - Yes, and there's also a difference between honesty 380 00:14:14,854 --> 00:14:16,564 and emotional brutality. 381 00:14:16,731 --> 00:14:20,485 * * 382 00:14:20,610 --> 00:14:24,030 [monitors beeping] 383 00:14:24,031 --> 00:14:25,406 - Hanging in there, Dr. Howard? 384 00:14:25,407 --> 00:14:27,075 - Oh, I'm totally good. 385 00:14:27,158 --> 00:14:29,577 - Yeah, I noticed. But how? 386 00:14:29,744 --> 00:14:31,705 Did you grew up in the Mojave Desert? 387 00:14:31,706 --> 00:14:33,539 - [laughs] Hot yoga three times a week. 388 00:14:33,540 --> 00:14:35,207 - Should be required in med school. 389 00:14:35,208 --> 00:14:36,333 [alarm beeps] - Blood pressure's dropping. 390 00:14:36,334 --> 00:14:38,670 90/56. Crit 32. 391 00:14:38,671 --> 00:14:40,462 - A unit of blood should level it out. 392 00:14:40,463 --> 00:14:42,840 - Even if we successfully remove all the dead skin, 393 00:14:42,841 --> 00:14:44,425 what's the likelihood he'll lose 394 00:14:44,426 --> 00:14:45,551 one or both limbs to infection? 395 00:14:45,552 --> 00:14:46,678 - Pretty low. 396 00:14:46,720 --> 00:14:48,263 His youth is a big factor. 397 00:14:48,346 --> 00:14:51,933 Early debridement could help ward off early necrosis. 398 00:14:51,975 --> 00:14:54,144 - Pressure's still low despite the blood. 399 00:14:54,227 --> 00:14:57,522 - Fluid loss from his burns is driving his blood pressure. 400 00:14:57,605 --> 00:14:59,607 Let's give 1 of FFP. - Got it. 401 00:14:59,691 --> 00:15:01,071 - The kid's lost his mother, 402 00:15:01,072 --> 00:15:02,943 and his father's hanging by a thread. 403 00:15:02,944 --> 00:15:04,028 Let's not have any more bad news. 404 00:15:04,029 --> 00:15:05,530 - He's stabilizing. 405 00:15:05,613 --> 00:15:07,532 115/75. 406 00:15:07,574 --> 00:15:08,950 - All right. Good, good. 407 00:15:10,869 --> 00:15:12,203 - Are you okay, Dr. Archer? 408 00:15:12,370 --> 00:15:15,582 - Yeah, fine. Yeah. 409 00:15:15,707 --> 00:15:17,334 - Dean! - What do I do? 410 00:15:17,417 --> 00:15:19,544 - Keep going. Keep going. 411 00:15:19,627 --> 00:15:21,796 - Okay. 412 00:15:21,838 --> 00:15:23,798 Okay. 413 00:15:25,592 --> 00:15:26,801 - Hey. 414 00:15:34,392 --> 00:15:36,311 Okay. What's up? 415 00:15:36,478 --> 00:15:38,772 - I don't know if I should say anything. 416 00:15:38,855 --> 00:15:40,982 - Say anything about what? 417 00:15:42,359 --> 00:15:44,277 - [laughs] 418 00:15:44,402 --> 00:15:47,155 Congratulations on the baby. 419 00:15:47,280 --> 00:15:49,407 - Uh, thank you? 420 00:15:49,408 --> 00:15:51,116 - I know I'm not supposed to know, 421 00:15:51,117 --> 00:15:53,243 but I overheard Hannah talking with Archer earlier, 422 00:15:53,244 --> 00:15:55,246 and I just, I'm so excited for you both. 423 00:15:55,288 --> 00:15:56,998 I just can't help myself. 424 00:15:58,416 --> 00:16:00,752 - Hannah is pregnant? 425 00:16:00,835 --> 00:16:02,003 - Oh, no. 426 00:16:05,507 --> 00:16:07,801 - Can you please help me? 427 00:16:07,802 --> 00:16:09,301 I'm looking for Caleb and Ricky Aldrich. 428 00:16:09,302 --> 00:16:10,886 They were brought in a few hours ago. 429 00:16:10,887 --> 00:16:12,262 I drove back into town as soon as I heard. 430 00:16:12,263 --> 00:16:13,348 - And you are? 431 00:16:13,431 --> 00:16:15,350 - Becky Aldrich. 432 00:16:15,475 --> 00:16:17,394 - Becky Aldrich? 433 00:16:17,477 --> 00:16:18,978 Are you Caleb's wife? 434 00:16:19,062 --> 00:16:21,064 - Yes, and Ricky's mother. 435 00:16:21,106 --> 00:16:22,732 [tense music] 436 00:16:22,774 --> 00:16:24,275 Oh, my God. 437 00:16:24,317 --> 00:16:25,527 Are they dead? - No. 438 00:16:25,610 --> 00:16:26,736 No, no, no. 439 00:16:26,820 --> 00:16:28,530 But we thought you were. 440 00:16:28,697 --> 00:16:34,035 * * 441 00:16:38,325 --> 00:16:39,707 . 442 00:16:39,708 --> 00:16:40,848 - How bad is my husband? 443 00:16:40,849 --> 00:16:44,253 - He's got third-degree burns across 65% of his body. 444 00:16:44,254 --> 00:16:46,296 Meds are keeping his blood pressure up, 445 00:16:46,297 --> 00:16:49,008 but his kidneys are failing, and his respiratory function 446 00:16:49,009 --> 00:16:52,262 is declining rapidly. 447 00:16:52,303 --> 00:16:55,515 - So you're telling me my husband's going to die. 448 00:16:55,516 --> 00:16:56,932 - It's unlikely he'll make it through the night. 449 00:16:56,933 --> 00:16:58,351 I'm sorry. 450 00:17:01,146 --> 00:17:05,150 - The other doctor, he said that you thought I was dead? 451 00:17:05,191 --> 00:17:07,360 - Yeah, that's right. 452 00:17:07,444 --> 00:17:09,904 - Why would you think that? 453 00:17:13,033 --> 00:17:14,617 - I need to prepare you. 454 00:17:14,743 --> 00:17:19,164 The condition of the body will be disturbing. 455 00:17:19,247 --> 00:17:20,623 - I understand. 456 00:17:20,665 --> 00:17:23,460 [somber music] 457 00:17:23,585 --> 00:17:30,592 * * 458 00:17:33,303 --> 00:17:37,432 Her name is Bonnie Harper. 459 00:17:37,515 --> 00:17:41,102 She used to be Ricky's babysitter 460 00:17:41,227 --> 00:17:42,812 until six months ago. 461 00:17:42,854 --> 00:17:45,023 - Used to be? 462 00:17:45,106 --> 00:17:47,776 - I fired her because I didn't like the way 463 00:17:47,901 --> 00:17:49,569 she was looking at Caleb. 464 00:17:51,696 --> 00:17:54,407 I guess my instincts were right. 465 00:17:54,491 --> 00:17:56,201 - Well, I'm sorry. 466 00:17:56,284 --> 00:18:03,291 * * 467 00:18:07,253 --> 00:18:08,421 [knocks] 468 00:18:08,422 --> 00:18:09,755 - Hudson, how are you doing? 469 00:18:09,756 --> 00:18:11,508 I'm Dr. Charles. 470 00:18:11,591 --> 00:18:14,177 Dr. Ripley asked me to drop by and say hello. 471 00:18:14,260 --> 00:18:16,554 - A psychiatrist. Uh-oh. 472 00:18:16,638 --> 00:18:19,724 - Trust me, I'm harmless. 473 00:18:19,725 --> 00:18:21,392 I'm so sorry about what happened to your leg. 474 00:18:21,393 --> 00:18:24,521 I understand it was crushed in the building collapse? 475 00:18:24,646 --> 00:18:26,815 - Yeah. Broken in three places. 476 00:18:26,898 --> 00:18:28,566 I didn't feel a thing. 477 00:18:28,567 --> 00:18:30,317 - Well, I mean, that's going to be the painkillers, right? 478 00:18:30,318 --> 00:18:34,072 And, you know, certain psychedelics can 479 00:18:34,155 --> 00:18:37,367 have some pretty powerful dissociative properties too. 480 00:18:37,450 --> 00:18:39,452 - Man, you're good, Doc. 481 00:18:39,536 --> 00:18:43,039 - Well, come on, the rave was a little hint, right? 482 00:18:43,123 --> 00:18:46,292 Dr. Ripley told me that you wish you died in the collapse. 483 00:18:46,418 --> 00:18:48,920 Is that true? 484 00:18:49,004 --> 00:18:50,880 - It is indeed. 485 00:18:50,964 --> 00:18:52,716 I still wish I was dead. 486 00:18:52,841 --> 00:18:55,385 - So I guess I'm just wondering, I don't know, 487 00:18:55,468 --> 00:18:58,179 what would make you say something like that? 488 00:18:58,221 --> 00:19:02,600 - Because I feel so damn good right now. 489 00:19:02,684 --> 00:19:07,022 - Okay, so you were just speaking in hyperbole? 490 00:19:07,188 --> 00:19:09,357 - No, I meant it. 491 00:19:09,441 --> 00:19:12,277 I want to die before I start feeling bad. 492 00:19:12,318 --> 00:19:14,738 - Before the X wears off? 493 00:19:14,821 --> 00:19:18,283 Can you tell me exactly what happened to your leg, 494 00:19:18,324 --> 00:19:20,869 inasmuch as you remember? 495 00:19:20,994 --> 00:19:23,038 - There was so much awesome music 496 00:19:23,121 --> 00:19:27,709 and so much touching and so many colors. 497 00:19:27,751 --> 00:19:30,170 And then suddenly everything went black, 498 00:19:30,211 --> 00:19:32,547 and everybody started screaming. 499 00:19:32,589 --> 00:19:34,049 - Huh. 500 00:19:34,090 --> 00:19:36,384 And where were you in the club at the time? 501 00:19:36,468 --> 00:19:38,303 Can you remember that? 502 00:19:38,345 --> 00:19:42,682 - I was on the floor, and there was something really heavy 503 00:19:42,724 --> 00:19:45,643 pinned on my leg, and I was yelling 504 00:19:45,727 --> 00:19:47,729 for someone to help me, 505 00:19:47,854 --> 00:19:51,608 but no one could hear, and they just kept running over me. 506 00:19:51,691 --> 00:19:54,235 Oh, it was crazy, bro. 507 00:19:54,319 --> 00:19:57,864 - Honestly, it sounds pretty terrifying. 508 00:19:57,947 --> 00:20:00,297 I mean, how'd you end up making it out of there? 509 00:20:03,078 --> 00:20:04,412 - [exhales] Uh... 510 00:20:08,249 --> 00:20:10,251 I don't remember. 511 00:20:11,878 --> 00:20:14,047 - Okay. 512 00:20:14,089 --> 00:20:16,424 - Outstanding job today, Doris. 513 00:20:16,549 --> 00:20:18,009 - Thank you, Ms. Goodwin. 514 00:20:18,010 --> 00:20:19,551 - You know, Maggie had some big shoes to fill. 515 00:20:19,552 --> 00:20:21,262 She'd be proud of you. 516 00:20:21,429 --> 00:20:24,079 - Well, I'm just keeping them warm till she gets back. 517 00:20:29,145 --> 00:20:30,522 - Hey. 518 00:20:36,820 --> 00:20:40,615 - You're-you're pregnant? 519 00:20:44,703 --> 00:20:46,329 - Mitch, um- 520 00:20:46,330 --> 00:20:47,788 - How could you- how could you not tell me? 521 00:20:47,789 --> 00:20:49,958 I mean, I know we were probably never 522 00:20:50,041 --> 00:20:51,668 going to get together again, 523 00:20:51,669 --> 00:20:53,293 but I certainly had a right to know. 524 00:20:53,294 --> 00:20:54,546 - Mitch, Mitch. 525 00:20:56,631 --> 00:20:58,133 It's not yours. 526 00:21:05,223 --> 00:21:06,558 - Then who? 527 00:21:06,641 --> 00:21:09,519 [soft dramatic music] 528 00:21:09,602 --> 00:21:11,229 * * 529 00:21:11,312 --> 00:21:13,023 - Dean. 530 00:21:13,148 --> 00:21:19,487 * * 531 00:21:20,822 --> 00:21:23,033 - Well, I didn't see that coming. 532 00:21:23,116 --> 00:21:25,618 - Neither did I, if I'm being honest. 533 00:21:25,702 --> 00:21:28,830 - How, um... 534 00:21:28,955 --> 00:21:30,665 how far along are you? 535 00:21:30,707 --> 00:21:35,045 - Mitch, you and I, we were already broken up. 536 00:21:35,128 --> 00:21:36,671 - So are you two now- 537 00:21:36,713 --> 00:21:37,839 - No. 538 00:21:37,922 --> 00:21:39,007 No. 539 00:21:41,968 --> 00:21:43,887 We are going to co-parent together. 540 00:21:43,970 --> 00:21:47,349 - I'm-I'm-I'm sorry. 541 00:21:47,474 --> 00:21:49,934 It's actually none of my business. 542 00:21:52,854 --> 00:21:54,314 - You're angry. 543 00:21:54,397 --> 00:21:55,774 - I'm not. 544 00:21:55,899 --> 00:21:58,318 Um. 545 00:21:58,401 --> 00:22:01,571 It's just, for a few hours, 546 00:22:01,654 --> 00:22:03,448 I thought I was gonna be a father. 547 00:22:03,531 --> 00:22:06,061 And no matter what that looked like for you and me, 548 00:22:06,117 --> 00:22:08,745 it surprised me how much I really wanted to be one. 549 00:22:08,870 --> 00:22:15,835 * * 550 00:22:18,922 --> 00:22:20,465 - Hold up. I need the room. 551 00:22:25,053 --> 00:22:27,343 From here on, things will move very quickly, 552 00:22:27,347 --> 00:22:29,224 so I wanted to give you two a minute 553 00:22:29,307 --> 00:22:31,559 to talk to each other alone. 554 00:22:31,726 --> 00:22:33,269 - To say goodbye. 555 00:22:33,270 --> 00:22:35,187 - To say the things that you would regret not saying. 556 00:22:35,188 --> 00:22:36,690 - Stop it, Dr. Lenox. 557 00:22:36,731 --> 00:22:39,359 - It's okay, Sierra. - No, it's not. 558 00:22:39,442 --> 00:22:42,654 Aren't you supposed to offer at least some semblance of hope? 559 00:22:42,737 --> 00:22:45,448 - People think they want hope, but hope is dangerous. 560 00:22:45,449 --> 00:22:47,366 Hope just gives you an excuse to put things off. 561 00:22:47,367 --> 00:22:48,742 - You don't understand how we feel. 562 00:22:48,743 --> 00:22:50,745 - I understand exactly how you feel. 563 00:22:56,251 --> 00:22:58,086 I'm sick. 564 00:22:58,211 --> 00:23:03,258 I may not die today, but it's coming, 565 00:23:03,299 --> 00:23:05,885 and there's nothing I can do to stop it. 566 00:23:06,011 --> 00:23:08,304 No one can. 567 00:23:08,388 --> 00:23:11,683 So yes, say goodbye, just in case, 568 00:23:11,766 --> 00:23:15,186 because when time runs out, it's gone. 569 00:23:15,270 --> 00:23:18,148 [somber music] 570 00:23:18,273 --> 00:23:21,359 * * 571 00:23:21,443 --> 00:23:23,570 - It should be me. 572 00:23:23,653 --> 00:23:25,572 I brought you to that rave. 573 00:23:25,573 --> 00:23:27,281 I'm the one with the life that's not worth all that much. 574 00:23:27,282 --> 00:23:30,410 - Please don't say that. - Let me finish. 575 00:23:30,452 --> 00:23:34,497 You're this shooting star who deserves 576 00:23:34,622 --> 00:23:37,417 the most incredible life, 577 00:23:37,459 --> 00:23:39,419 to get everything you've ever wanted. 578 00:23:39,502 --> 00:23:41,212 And I am- 579 00:23:41,296 --> 00:23:44,174 I am so sorry that I may have taken that away. 580 00:23:44,299 --> 00:23:47,177 - Sierra, I wanted to go to that rave 581 00:23:47,260 --> 00:23:51,556 because I always want to be where you are. 582 00:23:51,681 --> 00:23:54,142 Don't say that your life is worthless. 583 00:23:54,309 --> 00:23:56,394 It is not true. 584 00:23:56,436 --> 00:23:58,980 - I love you so much. 585 00:23:59,105 --> 00:24:02,400 - I love you too, Sierra. 586 00:24:03,985 --> 00:24:05,820 You're the best sister in the world. 587 00:24:05,987 --> 00:24:07,530 Always will be. 588 00:24:07,655 --> 00:24:10,658 * * 589 00:24:14,865 --> 00:24:16,163 . 590 00:24:16,164 --> 00:24:17,214 [whirring] 591 00:24:18,500 --> 00:24:21,419 - Cutting the bone to separate the lower arm from Shay. 592 00:24:21,503 --> 00:24:23,588 - You're a gifted surgeon, Dr. Lenox. 593 00:24:23,713 --> 00:24:25,840 - A compliment is so off-brand for you. 594 00:24:25,882 --> 00:24:28,510 - I give to those not desperately in need. 595 00:24:28,593 --> 00:24:30,463 Otherwise, I find them destructive. 596 00:24:30,470 --> 00:24:32,555 - I agree. Thank you. 597 00:24:32,639 --> 00:24:34,391 Ready to fully detach the arm. 598 00:24:34,516 --> 00:24:36,226 - Or what's left of it. 599 00:24:36,351 --> 00:24:40,021 [monitor beeping] 600 00:24:41,356 --> 00:24:42,982 - Gurney. 601 00:24:43,108 --> 00:24:44,734 On my count. 602 00:24:44,818 --> 00:24:46,027 Somebody secure the arm. 603 00:24:46,152 --> 00:24:47,529 One, two, three. 604 00:24:50,365 --> 00:24:52,295 [alarm blaring] - Sierra's crashing. 605 00:24:52,296 --> 00:24:53,534 Sierra's abdomen is distended. 606 00:24:53,535 --> 00:24:54,661 It wasn't before. 607 00:24:54,662 --> 00:24:56,161 - She must have developed a delayed bleed 608 00:24:56,162 --> 00:24:57,664 from the blunt trauma. 609 00:24:57,665 --> 00:24:58,997 She needs a laparotomy to have any chance at all. 610 00:24:58,998 --> 00:25:02,419 - We are not losing them both. 611 00:25:02,544 --> 00:25:06,047 - Mr. Aldrich, can you hear me? 612 00:25:06,172 --> 00:25:08,842 - Your wife asked us to lower your sedation 613 00:25:08,925 --> 00:25:10,552 so she can speak with you. 614 00:25:15,507 --> 00:25:19,727 - No, we can't remove that tube in your condition. 615 00:25:19,728 --> 00:25:20,937 - No, no. 616 00:25:20,938 --> 00:25:22,021 - No, no, no. Listen, stop. 617 00:25:22,022 --> 00:25:23,732 - Mr. Aldrich. 618 00:25:23,857 --> 00:25:26,627 - We need to reintubate you or you will die very quickly. 619 00:25:27,986 --> 00:25:31,448 - [rasping] I need to speak with my wife. 620 00:25:31,489 --> 00:25:34,868 [breathing raggedly] 621 00:25:37,537 --> 00:25:40,623 Is Ricky okay? 622 00:25:40,707 --> 00:25:42,937 - The surgery couldn't have gone any better. 623 00:25:43,043 --> 00:25:44,294 He'll recover. 624 00:25:44,419 --> 00:25:46,046 - Ricky's a strong kid. 625 00:25:48,298 --> 00:25:49,966 - Have you seen him? 626 00:25:50,091 --> 00:25:51,468 - Not yet. 627 00:25:51,593 --> 00:25:53,762 He's still in recovery. 628 00:25:53,887 --> 00:25:55,513 - Oh. 629 00:25:55,555 --> 00:25:57,432 - I know about Bonnie. 630 00:25:57,557 --> 00:25:59,100 [soft music] 631 00:25:59,225 --> 00:26:00,518 - Becky. 632 00:26:05,148 --> 00:26:10,195 - I have always loved you so much, Caleb. 633 00:26:10,278 --> 00:26:12,405 Over the years, so many of my friends 634 00:26:12,489 --> 00:26:15,825 grew apart from their spouses, fell out of love, 635 00:26:15,867 --> 00:26:17,494 but not me. 636 00:26:17,535 --> 00:26:21,164 I always felt our love deepened. 637 00:26:21,247 --> 00:26:24,709 Almost every moment of happiness I ever had 638 00:26:24,751 --> 00:26:26,544 happened next to you. 639 00:26:26,586 --> 00:26:30,048 I trusted you completely. 640 00:26:32,842 --> 00:26:36,179 What happened to that man? 641 00:26:36,221 --> 00:26:38,640 - He got stupid. 642 00:26:40,517 --> 00:26:43,895 - The fire captain said candles in our bedroom 643 00:26:44,020 --> 00:26:46,272 are what started the fire. 644 00:26:46,398 --> 00:26:50,110 I don't want to be angry with you, not now, 645 00:26:50,151 --> 00:26:53,863 but you almost cost us our son. 646 00:26:53,988 --> 00:26:56,783 - I'm so sorry. 647 00:26:56,825 --> 00:26:59,744 It was a mistake. 648 00:26:59,786 --> 00:27:03,248 Please don't tell Ricky. 649 00:27:03,331 --> 00:27:07,002 - Honestly, I don't know if I can promise that, Caleb. 650 00:27:10,714 --> 00:27:13,758 Thank you for saving Ricky. 651 00:27:17,178 --> 00:27:18,596 - Stay. 652 00:27:25,311 --> 00:27:27,313 - Mind if I turn the light on? 653 00:27:27,397 --> 00:27:28,648 - Whatever. 654 00:27:32,944 --> 00:27:35,238 - How you doing? 655 00:27:35,363 --> 00:27:37,532 - Good. 656 00:27:37,657 --> 00:27:40,035 Should I just go home? 657 00:27:40,160 --> 00:27:41,578 - You know what? 658 00:27:41,661 --> 00:27:43,705 For whatever reason, I'm just not- 659 00:27:43,830 --> 00:27:45,206 I don't know. 660 00:27:45,207 --> 00:27:46,957 I'm not comfortable with the idea of letting you 661 00:27:46,958 --> 00:27:48,752 walk out of here right now. 662 00:27:48,877 --> 00:27:50,962 - I just said I'm fine. 663 00:27:53,965 --> 00:27:57,135 - You know, another thing that Dr. Ripley told me 664 00:27:57,177 --> 00:28:02,057 is that whatever fell on your leg 665 00:28:02,140 --> 00:28:07,812 was way too heavy for one person to lift off of you. 666 00:28:07,854 --> 00:28:12,150 I'm just wondering, did you get any help? 667 00:28:16,237 --> 00:28:20,784 - When I was trapped... 668 00:28:20,909 --> 00:28:22,410 it was so dark. 669 00:28:24,454 --> 00:28:29,209 And- [breathes deeply] 670 00:28:29,292 --> 00:28:32,587 And I was begging for someone to help me, 671 00:28:32,671 --> 00:28:34,589 and I was terrified. 672 00:28:38,468 --> 00:28:42,639 And then someone found me. 673 00:28:42,681 --> 00:28:45,517 [soft tense music] 674 00:28:45,600 --> 00:28:48,186 A girl. 675 00:28:48,311 --> 00:28:51,439 - Was it somebody that you knew? 676 00:28:51,523 --> 00:28:52,941 - A total stranger. 677 00:28:55,735 --> 00:28:59,531 When she found me, she used her iPhone light 678 00:28:59,656 --> 00:29:02,742 to get a better look at me, and when I looked up at her, 679 00:29:02,743 --> 00:29:04,785 I swear to God, she looked like an angel. 680 00:29:04,786 --> 00:29:09,124 * * 681 00:29:09,249 --> 00:29:15,046 She told me that if we both pushed the beam off of my leg, 682 00:29:15,088 --> 00:29:18,341 that we could get it off, 683 00:29:18,466 --> 00:29:20,760 and so we did it, 684 00:29:20,802 --> 00:29:24,472 and it hurt like hell, but it worked. 685 00:29:24,556 --> 00:29:26,558 And so she helped me to my feet, 686 00:29:26,641 --> 00:29:29,602 and she started walking me out, and- 687 00:29:29,728 --> 00:29:33,732 and that was when the roof collapsed on us, 688 00:29:33,773 --> 00:29:36,151 and we were both on the floor again. 689 00:29:38,737 --> 00:29:40,405 When I looked over at her... 690 00:29:40,488 --> 00:29:45,535 * * 691 00:29:45,660 --> 00:29:47,871 Half her head was gone. 692 00:29:47,996 --> 00:29:50,832 [sobbing] 693 00:29:53,918 --> 00:29:56,963 And I just left her behind. 694 00:29:57,088 --> 00:29:59,591 - I'm sorry you had to go through that, Hudson. 695 00:29:59,632 --> 00:30:02,677 - If she didn't stop and help me- 696 00:30:05,263 --> 00:30:07,057 - What? What would have happened? 697 00:30:07,140 --> 00:30:10,310 - She would be alive, and I would be dead. 698 00:30:10,311 --> 00:30:11,685 - That's not logical, buddy. 699 00:30:11,686 --> 00:30:13,021 Listen, listen. 700 00:30:13,104 --> 00:30:14,814 Hudson, look at me. 701 00:30:14,898 --> 00:30:17,567 It's a very human thing to try and make sense 702 00:30:17,609 --> 00:30:20,862 out of some random, horrible, tragic event, right, 703 00:30:20,945 --> 00:30:24,949 to impose some kind of meaning onto it, some kind of logic, 704 00:30:25,033 --> 00:30:27,494 when very often there just isn't any. 705 00:30:27,577 --> 00:30:28,953 All right? 706 00:30:28,954 --> 00:30:31,163 Problem is, is that into that logic vacuum goes guilt. 707 00:30:31,164 --> 00:30:33,375 It's just what we do. 708 00:30:33,500 --> 00:30:35,460 In this case, what actually happened 709 00:30:35,543 --> 00:30:38,296 is that a kind person made a choice, 710 00:30:38,421 --> 00:30:40,924 and that choice was to help you. 711 00:30:41,007 --> 00:30:47,138 And she did, and you survived, and unfortunately, she didn't. 712 00:30:47,180 --> 00:30:49,432 - I didn't even know her name. 713 00:30:49,557 --> 00:30:54,312 * * 714 00:30:54,396 --> 00:30:57,482 She is not the one who deserves to die. 715 00:30:57,524 --> 00:30:59,067 - Nobody deserves to die. 716 00:30:59,150 --> 00:31:01,080 But just because she did doesn't mean 717 00:31:01,152 --> 00:31:03,655 that you don't get to live. 718 00:31:09,244 --> 00:31:11,371 - Well, crisis averted. 719 00:31:11,496 --> 00:31:14,332 - Sierra's closed. Take her to recovery. 720 00:31:14,374 --> 00:31:15,917 Let's take out Shay's spleen. 721 00:31:16,703 --> 00:31:18,752 Retractor. 722 00:31:18,753 --> 00:31:22,215 [monitor beeping] 723 00:31:25,051 --> 00:31:26,886 [alarm blaring] - Shay's crashing. 724 00:31:26,970 --> 00:31:29,305 - You got to open up her chest. - On it. 725 00:31:29,306 --> 00:31:31,432 These sisters are having very bad luck today. 726 00:31:31,433 --> 00:31:32,934 - Murphy's Law. 727 00:31:32,935 --> 00:31:34,309 - Starting cardiac massage. 728 00:31:34,310 --> 00:31:35,812 - PH is 7.2. 729 00:31:35,895 --> 00:31:38,273 She's 36 degrees. Crit is 26. 730 00:31:38,356 --> 00:31:39,986 - Keep transfusing on level one. 731 00:31:39,987 --> 00:31:41,316 - She's got a huge aortic hematoma from her fall. 732 00:31:41,317 --> 00:31:42,443 I'm trying to get control. 733 00:31:42,444 --> 00:31:43,903 [alarm blaring] 734 00:31:44,029 --> 00:31:46,197 She's in V-fib. - Paddles. 735 00:31:46,281 --> 00:31:48,783 [tense music] 736 00:31:48,908 --> 00:31:50,160 Clear. 737 00:31:50,285 --> 00:31:51,369 [machine beeps] 738 00:31:55,623 --> 00:31:57,542 20 joules. Clear. 739 00:31:59,794 --> 00:32:01,171 [machine beeps] 740 00:32:01,296 --> 00:32:07,719 * * 741 00:32:12,015 --> 00:32:13,725 I'm gonna call it. 742 00:32:13,767 --> 00:32:15,852 Time of death, 17:49. 743 00:32:15,977 --> 00:32:22,484 * * 744 00:32:22,609 --> 00:32:24,152 - 20. 745 00:32:24,235 --> 00:32:25,904 1 milligram of epi. 746 00:32:27,614 --> 00:32:28,865 - She's gone, Dr. Lenox. 747 00:32:28,990 --> 00:32:30,825 - Not until I say she is. 748 00:32:30,950 --> 00:32:33,703 Continue MTP. 749 00:32:33,828 --> 00:32:36,498 20. Clear. 750 00:32:36,581 --> 00:32:38,375 100 lidocaine. 751 00:32:38,500 --> 00:32:40,502 [machine beeps] 752 00:32:48,462 --> 00:32:49,843 . 753 00:32:49,844 --> 00:32:50,894 - 20. Clear. 754 00:32:51,012 --> 00:32:52,764 [machine beeping] 755 00:32:52,847 --> 00:32:54,599 [alarm blaring] 756 00:32:54,766 --> 00:32:56,601 Restarting cardiac massage. 757 00:32:56,643 --> 00:32:58,645 - Dr. Lenox, it's been 18 minutes. 758 00:32:58,728 --> 00:33:01,022 - I've had someone come back after 35. 759 00:33:01,023 --> 00:33:02,898 - Then it was one in million. Shay's gone. 760 00:33:02,899 --> 00:33:05,235 - Not yet. 761 00:33:05,360 --> 00:33:07,404 20, clear. 762 00:33:07,529 --> 00:33:08,988 Another milligram of epi. 763 00:33:10,740 --> 00:33:12,200 - Is this just about Shay? 764 00:33:12,283 --> 00:33:14,577 - 20. Clear. 765 00:33:14,703 --> 00:33:17,622 - This needs to stop now. 766 00:33:19,374 --> 00:33:21,918 [machine beeping] 767 00:33:22,043 --> 00:33:23,378 - There she is. 768 00:33:23,461 --> 00:33:25,255 - BP 85/43. 769 00:33:25,380 --> 00:33:27,882 Heart rate 120. 770 00:33:27,966 --> 00:33:29,592 She's back. 771 00:33:29,676 --> 00:33:34,347 [soft dramatic music] 772 00:33:34,389 --> 00:33:37,726 - That should not have happened. 773 00:33:39,144 --> 00:33:40,562 - Two in a million. 774 00:33:40,729 --> 00:33:45,734 * * 775 00:33:45,859 --> 00:33:47,068 - Hey. 776 00:33:48,278 --> 00:33:50,613 - Oh, hey. 777 00:33:50,697 --> 00:33:52,949 I heard a rumor today. 778 00:33:53,074 --> 00:33:55,660 Apparently, you and Ripley are having a baby. 779 00:33:55,744 --> 00:33:57,245 Congrats. 780 00:33:57,246 --> 00:33:59,329 - Trini overheard us talking this morning. 781 00:33:59,330 --> 00:34:02,459 - Yeah, nurses are the information superhighway. 782 00:34:02,584 --> 00:34:04,919 - She talked to Ripley. 783 00:34:05,086 --> 00:34:08,631 Naturally, he had some questions for me. 784 00:34:08,757 --> 00:34:11,593 - So what'd you tell him? 785 00:34:11,718 --> 00:34:14,012 - Everything. 786 00:34:14,137 --> 00:34:15,722 - How'd he take it? 787 00:34:17,807 --> 00:34:20,101 - He's gonna need a few days to process. 788 00:34:23,438 --> 00:34:27,400 - I couldn't help notice that you only came clean 789 00:34:27,484 --> 00:34:29,652 with Ripley when cornered. 790 00:34:29,736 --> 00:34:31,488 So what? 791 00:34:31,489 --> 00:34:34,114 Are you uncomfortable about the fact that I'm the father? 792 00:34:34,115 --> 00:34:35,450 - What? 793 00:34:35,451 --> 00:34:37,034 What are you- what are you talking about? 794 00:34:37,035 --> 00:34:38,370 - Oh, come on. I get it. 795 00:34:38,453 --> 00:34:41,456 I mean, I'm 64 years old, right? 796 00:34:41,498 --> 00:34:44,334 I fainted in surgery today because I literally 797 00:34:44,335 --> 00:34:45,542 couldn't take the heat. 798 00:34:45,543 --> 00:34:46,753 - Are you okay? 799 00:34:46,836 --> 00:34:49,422 - Why'd you take so long to tell anyone? 800 00:34:51,257 --> 00:34:54,177 - Because I'm terrified, Dean. 801 00:34:54,219 --> 00:34:55,887 - Terrified of what? 802 00:34:55,929 --> 00:34:58,264 - Of a thousand things. 803 00:34:58,431 --> 00:35:00,850 Of losing my status and respect 804 00:35:00,934 --> 00:35:03,603 that I've worked so hard to get here at work. 805 00:35:03,687 --> 00:35:07,148 I mean, of telling Mitch, of my sister hating me forever 806 00:35:07,190 --> 00:35:10,777 for having the baby that she can't have, 807 00:35:10,860 --> 00:35:13,029 of being a mother. 808 00:35:13,196 --> 00:35:16,700 And yeah... 809 00:35:16,741 --> 00:35:20,286 sometimes I worry about how this is going to work, 810 00:35:20,328 --> 00:35:21,958 you and I raising a kid together. 811 00:35:21,996 --> 00:35:23,540 - I understand. 812 00:35:23,665 --> 00:35:26,334 Believe me, I have doubts that I'll have the stamina 813 00:35:26,501 --> 00:35:32,257 to have a baby again, raise a child. 814 00:35:32,424 --> 00:35:36,386 That said, every time someone asks if I'm the grandfather, 815 00:35:36,387 --> 00:35:38,137 I'm going to want to punch them in the throat. 816 00:35:38,138 --> 00:35:39,389 - No. 817 00:35:39,514 --> 00:35:42,350 [tender music] 818 00:35:42,517 --> 00:35:49,274 * * 819 00:35:49,357 --> 00:35:52,777 I'm uncomfortable telling anyone 820 00:35:52,861 --> 00:35:57,365 because when I tell them, it'll make it real. 821 00:35:57,449 --> 00:35:59,409 - That's because it is real. 822 00:35:59,534 --> 00:36:02,495 - Yeah, and I'm feeling that more every day. 823 00:36:06,791 --> 00:36:08,209 - You know what? 824 00:36:08,251 --> 00:36:11,629 Forget about telling anyone else the truth. 825 00:36:11,713 --> 00:36:14,090 It'd be a lot more fun watching people slowly 826 00:36:14,174 --> 00:36:15,842 trying to figure it out. 827 00:36:15,884 --> 00:36:22,891 * * 828 00:36:31,358 --> 00:36:33,735 - Hey. 829 00:36:33,818 --> 00:36:35,570 Welcome back. 830 00:36:36,905 --> 00:36:38,573 - Shay. 831 00:36:38,656 --> 00:36:41,409 [soft music] 832 00:36:41,576 --> 00:36:45,038 * * 833 00:36:45,163 --> 00:36:46,539 Oh. 834 00:36:54,297 --> 00:36:55,674 Thank you. 835 00:36:59,761 --> 00:37:01,179 - How you feeling, Ricky? 836 00:37:01,262 --> 00:37:02,514 - Good. 837 00:37:02,597 --> 00:37:04,599 - He says he's not in much pain. 838 00:37:04,724 --> 00:37:07,352 - That means the meds are doing their job. 839 00:37:07,519 --> 00:37:09,062 - When can I see my dad? 840 00:37:18,029 --> 00:37:23,702 - I'm so sorry, Ricky, but... 841 00:37:23,827 --> 00:37:25,537 Dad didn't make it. 842 00:37:27,080 --> 00:37:28,581 - No. 843 00:37:28,665 --> 00:37:31,042 No. 844 00:37:31,126 --> 00:37:34,379 - The burns were just too severe. 845 00:37:34,546 --> 00:37:36,840 He died a few hours ago. 846 00:37:36,881 --> 00:37:38,883 - How'd this happen? 847 00:37:38,925 --> 00:37:41,344 What started the fire? 848 00:37:41,386 --> 00:37:44,556 [somber music] 849 00:37:44,639 --> 00:37:48,560 * * 850 00:37:48,685 --> 00:37:50,353 - We don't know yet. 851 00:37:50,395 --> 00:37:54,816 Honey, Dad loved you more than anything in the world. 852 00:37:54,941 --> 00:37:56,943 He knew nothing was more important 853 00:37:57,027 --> 00:38:01,156 than keeping you safe, and that's what he did. 854 00:38:01,239 --> 00:38:05,493 And he died knowing that you were going to be okay. 855 00:38:05,660 --> 00:38:12,625 * * 856 00:38:19,132 --> 00:38:21,259 - I'm glad you persisted today, 857 00:38:21,384 --> 00:38:23,136 but you also got incredibly lucky. 858 00:38:23,219 --> 00:38:25,055 - Lucky? I don't think so. 859 00:38:25,221 --> 00:38:26,598 - Call the shrink. 860 00:38:32,479 --> 00:38:34,272 - Hey, that was fast. 861 00:38:34,314 --> 00:38:36,566 - Yeah, I was waiting for you. 862 00:38:36,691 --> 00:38:38,860 - What's-what's wrong? 863 00:38:38,861 --> 00:38:41,028 - My babysitter just canceled last minute. 864 00:38:41,029 --> 00:38:43,406 I am so sorry, but can we reschedule? 865 00:38:43,531 --> 00:38:44,949 - Of course, of course. 866 00:38:45,075 --> 00:38:46,618 It's totally fine. 867 00:38:49,788 --> 00:38:53,166 What if we just ordered in? 868 00:38:53,249 --> 00:38:55,543 - I haven't even told her about us yet, 869 00:38:55,669 --> 00:38:58,672 and I'm not sure she's ready for that. 870 00:38:58,838 --> 00:39:00,423 - But she does already know me. 871 00:39:00,590 --> 00:39:04,219 So is this about me reminding her of the well? 872 00:39:04,386 --> 00:39:06,513 - No, no. 873 00:39:06,680 --> 00:39:09,641 I think that familiarity will 874 00:39:09,766 --> 00:39:13,103 make her fall even harder for you. 875 00:39:13,228 --> 00:39:15,146 - What are you afraid of? 876 00:39:15,230 --> 00:39:17,399 - Her getting attached too soon. 877 00:39:19,734 --> 00:39:21,277 - Okay. 878 00:39:21,361 --> 00:39:22,696 Okay. 879 00:39:24,989 --> 00:39:28,952 Look, it's obviously your call, but these last couple of months 880 00:39:29,119 --> 00:39:34,916 have been amazing, and Emelia is an amazing kid, 881 00:39:34,958 --> 00:39:38,920 and I'd love to get to know her better. 882 00:39:39,045 --> 00:39:41,464 - But we don't even know what this is yet. 883 00:39:41,548 --> 00:39:43,425 It's all still so new. 884 00:39:43,508 --> 00:39:49,180 - Whatever this is, I'm in. 885 00:39:53,852 --> 00:39:56,730 - Emelia, come here, please. 886 00:40:00,859 --> 00:40:02,861 - [gasps] I know you. 887 00:40:02,902 --> 00:40:04,446 - How you doing? - Good. 888 00:40:04,571 --> 00:40:05,739 - That's good. 889 00:40:05,905 --> 00:40:07,949 - Hey, can we have him come inside? 890 00:40:08,033 --> 00:40:10,160 - Yeah. - Yeah? 891 00:40:10,326 --> 00:40:11,661 Come on in. 892 00:40:11,745 --> 00:40:13,621 - Thank you very much. 893 00:40:13,663 --> 00:40:16,291 - * I'm a bitter pill on your tongue * 894 00:40:16,332 --> 00:40:20,795 * But I tell you I'm better than nothing at all * 895 00:40:20,879 --> 00:40:24,007 * I go down as smooth as a nail or a memory * 896 00:40:24,008 --> 00:40:25,883 - We don't carry chardonnay, sweetie. 897 00:40:25,884 --> 00:40:27,802 - Heady Topper from Vermont. 898 00:40:31,056 --> 00:40:34,100 - * You're afraid of the outside creeping in * 899 00:40:34,142 --> 00:40:35,852 * You don't really want me * 900 00:40:35,935 --> 00:40:37,771 * But you better believe * 901 00:40:37,937 --> 00:40:39,856 * I'm the ghost in your closet * 902 00:40:39,898 --> 00:40:41,816 - Not happening. 903 00:40:41,941 --> 00:40:44,194 - Not surprised. 904 00:40:44,235 --> 00:40:48,573 - * I know all your secret designs and amusements * 905 00:40:48,698 --> 00:40:51,034 * I'm listening on the phone * 906 00:40:51,117 --> 00:40:54,662 * You're afraid of the outside * 907 00:40:54,746 --> 00:40:57,749 * You're afraid of the outside creeping in * 908 00:40:57,832 --> 00:41:00,043 * You don't really want me * 909 00:41:00,126 --> 00:41:02,837 [upbeat rock music playing] 910 00:41:03,004 --> 00:41:05,173 * * 911 00:41:05,256 --> 00:41:06,883 [clattering] 912 00:41:06,925 --> 00:41:10,887 * Does it matter much that I'm such a pariah * 913 00:41:10,888 --> 00:41:13,013 * You're tired and bored with yourself * 914 00:41:13,014 --> 00:41:15,058 - No, no. 915 00:41:15,141 --> 00:41:17,769 - * A couple of nothings * 916 00:41:17,852 --> 00:41:20,230 * 'Cause nothing suits you well * 917 00:41:20,313 --> 00:41:23,149 * You're afraid of the outside * 918 00:41:23,233 --> 00:41:24,863 * You're afraid of the outside * 919 00:41:26,861 --> 00:41:29,698 [dramatic music] 920 00:41:29,864 --> 00:41:36,788 * * 921 00:41:56,975 --> 00:41:59,894 [wolf howls] 922 00:41:59,944 --> 00:42:04,494 Repair and Synchronization by Easy Subtitles Synchronizer 1.0.0.0